Photos Are a Blessing- A Blog by Brynn

The Blessing of Photos

My beautiful sister in law messaged me wanting to share her wedding photos. She was excited and happy to share and relive the memories. That evening she dropped off 5 cd's with over 500 photos! I put them by the computer with full intent to look that night, but i was so nervous to see.... see the memories of when my life felt complete with my two alive and healthy children, happy husband, and amazing family joining together for Braiden and Emily’s wedding. Where are my nerves coming from? It's been three months since Rowyn passed away and I look at her pictures daily. I don’t know how to explain why I am afraid to look, but I am. So they sat on the desk for two more days....putting off the pain I guess. Then I decided to suck it up and do this! Looking at photos should not be so hard, but for me at this time in my life it really is! I pop the first cd in.......and here comes the tears. Most of the pictures included my beautiful baby Rowyn. The memory of that day did come back to me. She was so precious playing in our makeup brushes while we were getting ready for the big day. I relived her giggles, happiness, chubby little hands and feet. All of her beauty and traits captured in a cd. With every photo it brought back a different memory. The tears poured. As hard and painful as it was seeing what I don’t have anymore, it was such a joy. Her innocence captured. I sob still even though I have looked at them over and over. With all the pain I feel I am still ever so grateful for this dear blessing of photos. These pictures were taken two weeks prior to Rowyn’s passing. I thank God for that day! It is one of my favorite memories shared with her as well as favorite photos of her. I thank God for timing. I am so thankful that she was still here to be a part of such a beautiful day. Not until experiencing this heart ache did I ever say photos are a true blessing!

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