Sittin' in a Church Pew- A Blog by Brynn

September 13th, 2015

This morning I walked into church and made my way down the isle to sit in my usual area. First I saw Cassie. She stood up when I got to her and gave me a big hug. She had clipped a beautiful pink Dahlia from her home and brought it to me. I could see on her face that it was another hard morning for her. We have gotten to the point where we can read each other pretty well. I know just by looking at her when she’s not doing well, and I know she can tell with me too. Sitting next to Cassie was Jen. I gave Jen a hug too as I squeezed by her to sit down on the other side of her and her daughter. For those of you who don’t know Jen, she is a great mutual friend Cassie and I both share, our RFR Secretary, and was both Cassie and my nanny for our kids for most of their lives. We both share a strong bond with her. Jen leaned over and said she would be here for me this week. If I needed anything at all just to let her know and she’s there. Take Wyatt to school last minute, pick him up, baby sit, bring food, whatever I need and she reassured me should would be there. I sat there waiting for church to get started and thought to myself, here we are the three of us all sitting together. Jen in the middle….she’s our backbone and she has her two little weak friends on each side of her that she is constantly supporting. I can’t help but think how exhausting it is for her to be such good friends with both of us, be a huge part of RFR, and not to mention go thru her own challenges in life. She has been pained so much through our tragedy as well but has never left us without her support. She has continued to always offer support for both of us and is so selfless that she doesn’t even like to bring up any issues of her own that she may be having because she doesn’t want to burden us with any other stress in our lives. What a huge blessing to have a friend like this. She was the person that connected Cassie and I together in the first place. I had already known Cassie but started building our relationship seeing each other at Jen’s house during pick up and drop off for our kids. She has been a huge part of our grieving process as well as starting and growing the charity. God has put us all together for a reason and it made sense to me today. I could fit some of the puzzle pieces into place. I never thought before the accident that we would all three be sitting in a church pew together…... maybe on barstools together but not in a church pew together. I guess what I am getting at is I felt extremely blessed to share my morning with these beautiful woman together and worship God with them. This has been such a hard journey for us all but I love where it has brought us. Our kids all sat together in there own church pew and were all having fun together. What a difference a year makes. I have a few more days until the anniversary of Rowyn’s accident. I know these next few days are going to be extremely hard. But I am blessed and know that I will again make it through with the support of great friends, family, and my faith.