What Dreams May Come-A Blog by Brynn

April 14, 2015

“When God sees you doing your part, developing what He has given you, then He will do His part and open doors that no man can shut.”

The time is coming closer and closer to our Raise for Rowyn events. I have never in my life been so overwhelmed. I mean overwhelmed all in a good way because I truly love what we are doing. I feel that this is my soul purpose in life and I am finally fulfilling that. It feels so amazing but my brain is still boggled. I know this has to be Gods work in guiding me because I still have many days where even attempting to load the dishwasher seems overwhelming. My phone has been blowing up all day long. I’ve now been putting it on silent for a few hours at a time because it’s a pretty constant distraction when trying to get anything accomplished. Never in my life did I imagine this is where I would be in life or what I would be doing. Cassie and I just spent the last 8 hours together working on RFR stuff. We discussed our future plans and where we see the charity going. It’s so cool because our goals and dreams were right on the same page. As crazy as we feel after the accident and as brain dead as we are sometimes we make a great team together. Today sharing our goals to one another makes me feel like we will be spending the rest of our lives together growing our charity and working on many other projects. One common goal we share is writing a book together. The weirdest part about it is that I had a dream a few months prior and I was walking through Costco and looked down and saw a book that I wrote for sale. So after sharing this dream with Cassie she said that is crazy because she had really been wanting to write a book and has envisioned us writing one together. That’s how it started. The pieces just fall into place for us. So after that I was working at the salon and a successful writer happened to be in there. We started chit chatting about her book she was writing. Needless to say we have been in constant contact since and she is going to help Cassie and I with taking the steps to help us write our own book. This is a journey we never planned on taking but now we are both so excited to work on this next chapter together. This will be our story, both sides, gracefully healing and hopefully helping many individuals that may suffer from either situation. I feel like God just places these opportunities and people in my path. I’ve asked for guidance and this is what I have been given step by step direction. We also share many of the same goals for expanding our charity. We want to help more than just locally. Our dream is to make Raise for Rowyn our everyday jobs. We want nothing more than to grow our charity big enough that we can help families all over the country. Going through this tragic experience first-hand, I know that there is not support for things like child loss. You hear about grief support or loss support but specific child loss……no you don’t because people don’t even want to fathom that it is a real issue. It’s truly the most painful loss any parent could experience. We are breaking the cycle. Those of you that know me personally know that I am not a quiet person. I don’t want to be quiet about this topic either even though it’s so hard to hear about. I want other mothers, fathers, papas, nanas, aunties, and uncles to know that there is support out there when they suffer this pain. It is the lowest of low anybody in my family has ever been. We still struggle daily. Not even just my husband and I, it has shaken my whole family to its core. We have all been more grateful for family time and screaming kids running through the house. I hope Raise for Rowyn can help other families gracefully heal just as we are struggling to do. This is going to be a life long journey that has forever changed us but I couldn’t think of another person I would rather be building up a charity with other than Cassie and my RFR team members.